Very Hard Week

This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. My Grandpa Billy, that I helped take care of for the past three years, passed away early Monday morning. He had a very long struggle with diabetes and had been on dialysis for about three years. He went into the hospital on Tuesday of last week to have his foot amputated, which was his very worst fear. The surgery went fine but a couple days later he took a turn for the worse. I think it was him giving up and just being tired of everything that he has had to go through. On Sunday my Grandma made the hardest decision of her life and stopped all treatment and decided to let him go peacefully. No more poking. No more prodding. No more medicine. No more doctors.
He was sent to his own room and was made comfortable and the whole family was with him all day. My Grandma and I stayed the night with him and he died at about 3AM. My head was laying on the bed next to his and I was holding his hand.

I am very heartbroken because he was such a big part of my life for so long - especially for the past three years. But it's comforting knowing that he is not in pain anymore. It had gotten pretty bad the last year.
Brendon and I told Brenna Tuesday morning that her Papa had gone to Heaven and she seemed to take it okay. I have always been very honest with her and she has known for a long time that Papa was sick. I cried when I told her and that sweet little child put her arms around ME and told me that it would be okay. After pondering over it a couple days though I think the reality of it is finally hitting her and she has cried a couple times. She did not want to go to the funeral today and she keeps telling me that she misses her Papa. It will be hard for the both of us for a while. Brenna and I will keep continuing to go to my Grandma's house Monday thru Friday for a little while. I don't want to change that right now. She needs us and I want to make her life as normal as I can right now.

I am so very grateful that I was able to spend as much time with him as I did. I will cherish the last three years for the rest of my life. Brenna will have fond memories of her Great Grandpa as well. Not many kids can say that.

I love you and I miss you Grandpa.

(Link to the obituary)
http://www.valleymorningstar.com/articles/graves_40728___article.html/harlingen_billy.html