Excited but a little concerned....

Tomorrow is a pretty big day in the Spear household - Brenna starts Summer Camp. *sigh*

I have a mixture of emotions about this and I am actually very surprised and really didn't think that I would be THIS nervous.

Big deal, right? So she's off to spend some time with other kids (not really worried about that) and a few teachers, riding school buses and eating lunch in the cafeteria. Sounds normal, huh?

Well not for us it doesn't!!!!

We've never had the "first day of school" experience. I've never had to worry about what my kid is eating in the cafeteria and if she's going to STARVE that day because she can't stand what they are serving (and yes, she is p-i-c-k-y! but she loves to eat). I've never had to worry about someone else, who I hardly know at all, taking care of my kid (and I like it that way). Okay, make fun of me if you want - I know some of you are. HA. HA. HA. But seriously, this is big stuff for me - totally full of 'firsts'.
I know she'll be fine and I know she'll love it. She's a fairly flexible kid.

I can tell that she is feeling a tad bit apprehensive about it though - and no! she's not picking any of it up from me. I am giving out a totally cool vibe to her about this whole thing and not showing any doubts. She asked me the other day if she would be able to take my cell phone with her so that she could call me when she wanted to. You don't know how bad I want to let her take it but I am so afraid that she would lose it so I told her sorry, but no. She was bummed about that. She's pretty used to being able to call me whenever she wants. Who knows... maybe I'll change my mind later - she is a really responsible kid. I think tomorrow I am going to talk to her "teacher" and let her know that if Brenna wants to come home then she can call me and I will come and get her.

You have to understand my reasoning I guess -- this thing that Brenna is going to is pretty much day care, if you want to put it bluntly. Parents send their kids to this so that they have someplace to go during the summer while they work. Well I don't work (outside of the house - just HAD to add that, because I DO work my butt off, just don't get paid for it....). I don't have to have my kid go there- she's going because she wants to and because she wants to have fun. I'm sorry, but if she's not having fun and if she'd rather be at home, playing with her toys or with the neighborhood kids then she should be able to come home - that is HER choice. She doesn't have to be there if she doesn't want to. Some days she may want to stay the whole 6 hours - some days she might only want to stay for three. And I am hoping that they will let her call me if she's ready to come home. I am afraid that they won't and that is what is really stressing me out. If it comes to that I may just let her take my cell phone.
But before I start jumping to any conclusions, I guess I should just wait and see how this all pans out. I just tend to worry a little pre-maturely sometimes, I guess. Being a mother I guess I just can't help it.....